Caleb came home from school and handed me this.
In case you can't read it, it says "I am lucy Be Kus I have oun brudr."
In case you can't read THAT it says, "I am lucky because I have one brother."
Through the lump in my throat, I told him how proud of him I was that he wrote this all on his own. I also reconfirmed to him that he is indeed lucky that he has a brother. He told me how proud he was to be writing sentences on his own, and I agreed that he should be very, very proud of himself.
My heart screamed though. He has two brothers. But I would never force that on him. I want him to grieve and accept his reality as he wants to. I don't want to force Joshua on him.
I didn't even ask which brother he was talking about. I didn't want him to feel badly for saying that he only has one brother. I know he was talking about Luke. I didn't want him feeling guilty for leaving out Joshua.
It makes me sad for Caleb that he is faced with the decision about whether or not to explain that he has a brother in Heaven. He has told me before that sometimes it is just easier for him to say that he only has one brother because he doesn't feel like talking about Joshua.
I always encourage him to talk about Joshua as much or as little as he wants. This was one of those occasions that he felt like it was easier to simply say he had one brother instead of two.