Today, there were major storms. Nothing like what Southern Indiana and Alabama had, but the lighting strikes were many and the thunder was LOUD.
As with every storm since Joshua died, 3 things cross my mind.
1. Are our supplies ready in case we lose power?
2. Are our blankets and cushions ready in case we need to duck into the laundry room for a tornado?
3. Are Joshua's pictures and personal items in a location that I can quickly reach on my way out of the house in case of a fire?
Storms happen. Of course, my first priority is to make sure my (living) children are safe and that we have what we need to ride out the storm, but just as equally important is protecting what I have left of the son that we lost.
All of Joshua's photos, clothes, and documents are next to our front door. That is not by happenstance. When arranging our furniture, I purposely placed the book shelf that houses those items, literally, right next to the front door. In case of a fire I can quickly grab them on the way out.
When you lose a child, all you have left are their pictures. When it storms, not only do I worry about the protection of my family, but also of the items that could be lost that are the only connection that I have with Joshua.
Tonight, I'm praying for those who experienced the loss of their homes and quite possibly their lives due to the storms. I'm praying for families who have lost loved ones who were not able to save the only things they have left of their loved ones. I can't even begin to imagine what that would feel like to lose those items.