Thursday, February 16, 2012
"Mom? Why did grandpa get lighter and lighter?"
"What do you mean, Caleb?"
"Before he died. He got lighter and lighter. His skin changed color and got lighter."
What else did he notice?
"Well, when we get sick, sometimes out skin color changes. Like when you get the flu and you are about to puke, sometimes I can tell because your face turns a light green color. It's just part of being sick."
"So, when I get sick, I change color too?"
"If I get the flu and change color does that mean I will die?"
"No sweetie, it just means that you are sick. Grandpa was very, very sick. His body was very close to dying. His blood had lots of cancer in it. He also wasn't breathing very well because there was cancer in his lungs. He got lighter and lighter because his soul, what's inside of him, was getting ready to leave his body and go to Heaven. But that doesn't always happen when we are sick. If we get lighter it just means that our body is fighting the bad germs and trying to get better."
These conversations are so difficult. I'm amazed at his observations with both Joshua and my dad. He noticed things that we tried to protect him from. We failed. Now, I can only pray that his heart remains tender and that the Holy Spirit helps guide my words and his understanding.
It's not fair that a 5 year old has to ask these kinds of questions.