Sometimes the need and urge to write overwhelm me.
It has happened on more than one occasion, that I try to go to bed, and my heart and my mind start racing, and I can't possibly even think about falling asleep until I have written what is on my heart. I simply HAVE TO write before I call it a day.
There have been other times that I wake up in the middle of the night, and am drawn to my computer. The words just flow freely, and the tears join them. Once I get them all down and out of my system, I can go back to sleep like nothing happened.
Other times, I have an idea in my head for a few days or even weeks before I can write about it. It sits in my mind, allowing me time to think about what I want to say, or mull over certain ideas or topics. I gather phrases and wording that must be used, and then all at once, the words come rushing out of my fingertips.
This is one of those times. I know what I want to write, but it's not there. The words won't come.
I've sat down to write at least 3 times now, and I just can't get it. It's not ready yet. But the words will be revealed soon, and I will write once again from my heart.
I'm not promising anything life changing or deeply profound once it does come. But I am promising something that is Holy Spirit inspired. When I feel this strongly about what I am supposed to write, I know that those words are not my own and there is a greater purpose to it.
The Holy Spirit is nudging me, preparing me, working within me. Something clicked inside me this weekend and I'm bursting to share. But for some reason, the time isn't right. The words simply won't come in an understandable form.
Until it comes, I'm praying that God reveals the right words to me soon. Otherwise I think I may go CRAZY!!! :o)