I love my children. I really REALLY do.
I don't take a second with them for granted. Especially after Joshua died.
But some days- like today- I just want to pull my hair out and scream at them!
They aren't doing anything horribly wrong.
They are just being kids, making kid messes, and doing kid things (you know...like pooping in their pants when there is a toilet 5 feet away, wanting their costumes buttoned and unbuttoned, spilling playdough on the rug and grounding it in, or spilling an entire brand new box of Cheerios on the kitchen floor and proceeding to "squish" them with their feet.).
I'm just tired of the "No's" and "Why's" when I ask them to do something.
I'm tired of the constant whining that comes out of Hannah's mouth instead of just talking or asking.
I'm tired of playing referee when they can't just work out their problems and SHARE!
Don't get me wrong. I have some good kids. They have learned to clean up after themselves when we are done eating breakfast, lunch, or dinner. They say please and thank you without my prompting. They listen extremely well to other adults. Hannah has even finally taken to TELLING me when she has to go potty (I thought that day would NEVER come!) They really are good kids.
But, gosh, I just need a break (or a really good nap) sometimes!
I think the exhaustion of the move and the pregnancy are finally catching up with me. I also think the kids are still trying to adjust to their new settings, but jeesh- this mama needs a time out!
3 comments:
I can totally relate. Being home with your kids all day, move n preggers or not, can be exhausting physically but most of all mentally and emotionally. Hang in there, you're not alone. If you're up for any ideas on discipline, I sometimes (not always) tell my kids they need to work out their problem cause if I have to cut in then they are both getting time out. It's amazing how many issues they resolve on their own. Also, with attitude I have adopted a no tolerance policy. As soon as the attitude shows up I remind them to change it or they will go to their room until it does. Take it or leave it hon. If you like, you can disregard it all. (I'll never know unless you tell me ;).)
heck yeah girl!! I think I'll walk around with my mp3 player tomorrow... "huh? sorry..can't hear you." LOL..
When I get to the point that I can't stand being around my boys for another second I know it's time to have a sewing day. My friend takes them for the whole day and I go home and sit at my machine all day. Or sit on the floor and listen to creedence, or take a nap. They get away from grumpy old mama and I get to be alone. Then I'm refreshed and able to be the patient mother I want to be. The quote that lead to this arrangement? If your cup is empty you will have nothing with which to sustain your child. Maybe you need to fill up your cup Jill, mothers are taught that we have to sacrifice everything for our kids. But how are we supposed to make our children joyful when we aren't?
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