Monday, January 3, 2011

Now I Lay Me

Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep is an amazing non-profit
 organization of volunteer photographers.

Their photographers come at the darkest moments of a parent's life
 to capture the beauty amongst the pain and anguish.

They provided us with the most painstakingly beautiful pictures of sweet Joshua.

These photos are the single most awful
and most beautiful pictures
 I have ever laid eyes on.

These pictures were taken just hours after 8:58am on Wednesday, October 6, 2010.

We are eternally grateful
for the gift of time and talent
given to us by Kim, a NILMDTS volunteer/photographer.

You can click on any photo below to make them larger.












I love you sweet Joshua. 

32 comments:

The Cox Family said...

I have worked with this org. several times as a NICU nurse. What they do is so amazing. I am so glad that they exist and you guys were able to use them. What a blessing!

lovingmysoldier said...

Gorgeous pictures, my friend is a volunteer photographer for NILMDTS, I am so happy you got them done, you will treasure them

They are beautiful and so is he

Jami said...

I am crying as I look at them...they are so beautiful...

MamaKK922 said...

Those are some of the best pictures I have ever seen. They simply took my breath away. I to am so happy you were able to have them taken. They are sad but just AMAZING.

Shawn Becker said...

These are the most beautiful, yet heart wrenching pictures, I have ever seen. What an amazing gift these volunteers give to parents. I am forever grateful that you shared this part of your life. May God continue to wrap his loving arms around you and give you peace.

Shawn

Beckytwogirls said...

So very moving. Such a beautiful baby.

Shelly said...

What beautiful pictures that you can treasure forever....

Lauren said...

There are no words... my heart goes out to you both. I have heard of this organization, but with Caleb's passing being so sudden, I didn't know that it could have been done. Heart hugs. ♥

brookie said...

They do amazing work. Sometimes this is the only real pictures that a family ever gets of their baby. Thanks for posting them.

Onna said...

Tears fill my eyes as I comment on this. Jill, what a beautiful way to have that moment remembered. My heart is with you, always.

Debbie said...

I would love to volunteer for them...but I dont know if I could handle it. They are great pics and I am so glad you have them.

sidsmom2mickey said...

Oh Jill I'm glad you have these photographs. I could not see them myself, too close for comfort. Found I couldn't breathe with the memories.

I'm so thankful for this org, though.

Praying for you.

Peggy

Tiffany said...

Oh my, Jill. My eyes are welling up with tears. What a wonderful gift that organization is. What beautiful, precious and yet heartwrenching memories.

Many prayers for you and I do think of you often.

Amy said...

Tears are as welling as I am left speechless. These are beautiful pictures that you will treasure for a lifetime. What amazing work that they do.

Stephanie, Daughter of the Risen King said...

The pain in your face is shattering yet Joshua is so peaceful. That contrast in the photographs is so confusing. Everything is there and correct, even his snuggly. I can't imagine what you see through your eyes.

Anonymous said...

No words, just tears and prayers and hugs to you. The pain in your face is so completely raw and the love you both show for your sweet boy is so completely shown. Love to you all.

The Real Life of a Red Head said...

i see pain, and loss. I see confusion and brokeness. but above all else, i see a baby that was loved and is loved beyond all measure. I see thankfulness for the peace surrounding and within Joshua, but the turmoil that his absence has left.

above all else, I see love. love from a mother and father, love from a husband and wife, love of a savior who is carrying joshua Home.

Carla Sue said...

I love you. I love you all: Jill, Shane, Caleb, Hannah, and Joshua. I feel so blessed to have had my life touched by each and every one of you. I have a couple of pics of Joshie that I took the day I visited. If you want them, let me know and I can send them to you.

Deidre said...

These pictures are beautiful Jill!!! I wish I had known of NILMDTS with Ayden. These pictures are a beautiful tribute to your Angel. Love to all of you!!!

PBJ Mommy said...

NILMDTS is an amazing organization and these photos are such a treasure.
I'm so heartbroken for your loss and so glad you have these photos of your beautiful boy.

Heather said...

My God he is beautiful.

Jana A said...

Goodness, he's beautiful and so are the pictures. I wish I had known about NILMDTS when Charlie died almost 8 years ago.

nicugradsmom said...

No words.....just tears.....

Anonymous said...

beyond speechless. my heart is both touched and saddened but above all reassured...that there is hope when tragedy strikes...that there is a God when you feel the loneliest...that there is peace in chaos.

may god bless you and your family
may joshua watch over you from heaven

Robin said...

Beautiful. Thank you for sharing your sweet boy with us, both in your words and these sweet, sentimental pictures.

Alena said...

Beautiful pictures *hugs* I am a photographer, and will definitely be looking into this organization. I saw a similar post about a year ago, and was very intrigued. Thank you for posting; what a treasure *hugs*

Heather said...

So sad and sweet- these make me cry

Lisette said...

Those pictures are so sweet, thank you for sharing.

ARH said...

I haven't ever commented before, but have been reading your blog for awhile.

My heart is breaking for you and your family. These pictures are beautiful and I am so glad you have them as a gorgeous reminder of your amazing baby boy.

Mellow said...

We finally just looked at our pictures from them about a month ago...I wasn't ready until then. We all cried, and were so very thankful for the wonderful gift they gave. So special. I know what you are feeling. Praying for you.

ErinKate23 said...

Thank you for posting these, and for showing others the beautiful and important work that NILMDTS does. I'm so glad they were able to document beautiful Joshua. The pictures are gorgeous.

Christine the ArizonaIntactivist said...

Just beautiful... Thank you for sharing, Jill...

 
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