Tuesday, February 23, 2010


I woke up this morning and filled the toilet bowl with blood again. I had a feeling it was coming, but nothing ever prepares you for that. I HATE this.

I feel beat down and tired. I feel nauseous almost 24/7. This really REALLY sucks.

God, I cry out to you. Please show me your love. Hold me in your arms and never let go. God I need you more now than ever. I praise you for all that you are capable of. I praise you for knowing what the future will hold, and guiding me through. God, I pray for your will to be done. I pray for the strength to get through whatever may come. It is only through you that I can even take my next breath. I need you Lord. I need your strength and your love.


Anonymous said...

I wish I could take on your pain, even if only for a little while so you could rest and be fresh to pick it up again. Joshua is a very special little one and very fortunate to have a mom willing to take anything this pregnancy throws her way to ensure his safety. To have a dad that loves him and his mom so much he would do anything for her. To have a big brother and sister that are so very special themselves. To have such a loving God that he gave his life for him...and he isn't even born yet. Oh the love that flows for this little life!

The Real Life of a Red Head said...

thank you for your kind words. this comment in itself may inspire a blog post! You are so right. the love that flows for this little life is more than I have ever seen. Not only from our family, but from our church friends. The support, love and prayers have been sustaining us both physically and mentally. We are so thankful for all of you guys who are willing to go to the Lord on our behalf.

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