Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Gaining Control of the Anxiety

I've still been struggling with anxiety. A lot.

I have shared over and over, how much I HATE my anxiety and how out of control it makes me feel.

It has been like a black hole in my life. Something that sucks me in and I cannot, for the life of me, dig myself out. It's unpredictable and has ruled my life for too long.

I've been working hard in counseling and have been taking my medication as I need it, and it has been helping. I have noticed that I am beginning to be able to control the intensity of the attacks. I've been praying almost daily that God would deliver me from the anxiousness that has controlled my life since Joshua died. Although I still have a long way to go, I'm beginning to see improvement.

Over the past few days, I have had a few incidents that have brought me to the verge of an anxiety attack. I have felt myself going to the dark and scary place where my thoughts spin out of control.

But, the past few days have been good for me. I have been able to pinpoint the source of my anxiety and I have been able to work through it without the medication. I have been, literally, able to take control of the situations and once I do, the feeling is almost euphoric.

Like I said, I still have a long way to go. I still struggle almost daily with the anxiety of everyday issues. I still question where my intuition begins and the anxiety ends, but I feel like I'm making progress. God has been faithful and He has provided me with the right tools and the right people to help me conquer this.



6 comments:

Laurie said...

I have also had anxiety for years....I hate it! One of the best things I have found that helps you work through your anxiety is a program by Lucinda Bassett. It is from the Midwest Center for Stress and Anxiety. It is called ATTACKING ANXIETY AND DEPRESSION. It helps you learn to be kind to yourself and talk yourself through it....it is wonderful. It is kinda expensive but worth it. I also have to take medication(zoloft) and also pray often for help! I hope this might help you. God bless!

Melissa said...

Jill,
I am so glad you are beggining to be able to take control of your anxiety. Now I have to work on mine.

Sarah Strong said...

I have struggled with anxiety since i was kid. The attacks have become more frequent since I've become a mother, and they sound quite similar to what you have experienced. I can say that one thing that has helped me is my husband calming me down physically by literally bear hugging me on the bed and taking deep breaths, calmly talking to me and encouraging me to breathe deeply. It almost always works better than anything i've ever tried... and i have to say that the only time in my life that i can remember my anxiety really being under control was when i was doing yoga regularly (about 2-3 times a week). It really helped to expel extra energy and to help calm my entire life. You are on the right track being able to control the anxiety, it isn't easy... The last time I had a bad anxiety attack and was literally shaking from it, I started doing strenuous stretching/yoga/exercising, and it really helped me get a hold of the situation, as you explain it was almost euphoric, i felt like i was having a huge adrenaline rush and could accomplish anything! it was actually a really great way to channel all that crazy energy!!!

Auntie M said...

I'm proud of you Jill! You are remarkable! xoxo

ElizaV said...

I came across your blog whilst reading about anxiety, and I know this feeling - I have struggled with anxiety for years! When all feels hopeless just try to remember, you can beat it. I have managed to take control (for the most part!) of my anxiety, and 3 years ago I never thought I would be able to say that.
Keep strong!

http://www.searchingforoptimism.blogspot.com - feel free to check out my anxiety blog if you'd like to :) x

Susan Johnson said...

I have struggled with anxiety . I have taken Counseling for Anxiety and stress. These counselings are very effective to control the stress and anxiety issues.

 
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