Friday, January 13, 2012
Can you guess what that number is?
It's a number that makes me cringe every time I see it.
It's a number that represents a few years of being completely out of control.
It's a number that only I can do something about.
It's a number that I need to make smaller- for me, for my children, for my husband.
I'm sure you can guess what that number is.
I'm putting it all out there in an effort to keep me accountable. (and hopefully inspire a few of you to join me in becoming less.)
Yup. You got it.
GASP!!!!!!!! I just publicly put my weight on my blog. YIKES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That number is going to be lessening. It HAS to become smaller.
This is not a New Years resolution for me. This is not something that is going to fade away in the next month.
I'm ready to fight that awful number. I'm ready to become healthy again.
For me. For my children. For my husband. But mostly for me.
This past Tuesday night I started Weight Watchers.
I participated in the Weight Watchers program 2 years ago, before I got pregnant with Joshua. I had a huge success and lost almost 50 pounds!
I remember how I felt when I lost that weight.
I felt confident.
I felt energized.
I felt healthy.
But not now.
I am embarrassed to be in my own skin.
I don't like being out of breath or struggling to get off the floor when I play with my kids.
Honestly, I'm embarrassed about the number of points that I am allowed to eat every day- they are based on my height and weight.
But no more.
I'm going to change this. That number is going to start dropping.
I'm going to find the confident Jill again- the Jill that loves herself just as God made her.
This is not about achieving a certain weight. Ideally, I would love to lose between 80-100 pounds. But as long as I'm feeling healthy and confident, I really don't care what size I am.
I'm doing this for me. I constantly give, give, give. Everything I do, I do for my children and my husband. I do nothing for myself. This is for me. As selfish as this may be, I need to do this for ME!
I'm 255. Hopefully next week, I will be a little less. Good bye 255!!!