I think it something that will be extremely good for me personally, and something that many of you can probably relate to.
When I was first married over 7 years ago, this is what I looked like.
|Sorry for the poor quality- it's a cell phone picture taken of a picture!|
This is me now. (and yes, I realize I am 8 months pregnant, HOWEVER, that baby is not living in my chin, my arms, or my hips!)
See the difference?
The weight. Ugh. The weight.
When I was pregnant with Caleb, I gained 80 pounds. After I delivered him, I only lost 20 of those 80. Then I got pregnant with Hannah. I gained another 60 pounds- then lost 20 after I delivered her. Between the two of them, I put on a whopping 100 pounds that I never took off.
Right before I got pregnant with Joshua, I started Weight Watchers. I lost 40 of those 100 pounds. I was feeling really good about myself. I wanted to lose the extra 40, but then I became pregnant again.
After bedrest and an extremely stressful pregnancy and delivery, I gained another 50 pounds- I put on everything that I worked so hard to lose. After delivery, I didn't lose any of it.
Now that I'm pregnant with Luke, I've only gained 25 pounds so far- a huge accomplishment for me, but I'm still the heaviest I have EVER been. And quite honestly? I'm miserable.
So here's what's brewing.
I am going to start another blog (don't worry- this one isn't going anywhere). This new blog is going to document my journey to becoming HEALTHY. Not necessarily a weight loss blog- although losing weight will be included.
I want to document my journey to making better eating and lifestyle choices. But it's not about achieving a certain dress size or weight. It will be about becoming a good steward of my body- taking care of what God has given me and loving the body that God gave me- even if it will NEVER be a size 2 (or even a size 9 for that matter!). It's about honoring God with my body, mind and spirit.
And yes. I'm going to put it all out there. I am going to tell you my weight, my pant size and my measurements. I'm going to document my failures as well as my successes, and I'm going to be applying God's word to this journey.
I've been thinking long and hard about this, and I'm so excited about becoming healthy again. I can't wait to share my journey with you all and hopefully inspire others to walk along side me to become the women (and men) that God created us to be- fully loving our bodies that were made in His image- even if our bodies are what society tells us they need to look like.
As soon as I get the site up and running, I will let you all know. I'm not really going to start "dieting" (I think I may eliminate that word from my vocabulary) until after Luke is born, but I can most certainly start applying some of these things to my life now.
Will you join me?