Friday, December 24, 2010

He's gone. God is Here.

In the car when the kids are entertaining each other- making each other laugh, singing goofy songs, saying funny things- he’s gone. But I am here.

In the morning, afternoon, and evening when I’m making food. Preparing our meals- he’s gone. But I am here.

In the sleepy snuggles moments after a good nights rest- he's gone. But I am here.
At night when the kids are in the bath- he’s gone. But I am here.

In the middle of the night, in the midst of a dream that awakens me- he’s gone. But I am here.

During the calm moments when Hannah is napping and Caleb is playing- he’s gone. But I am here.

When I kiss boo-boos, wipe noses, clean bottoms, pick up socks, do endless loads of laundry, multiple loads of dishes, picking up ridiculous amounts of toys- he’s gone. But I am here.


The small moments in each day are reminders of what we are missing. The daily routines scream at me- reminding me of what has been taken from me. The insignificant details of the day serve as a constant reminder of all of the should have beens. I am constantly reminded that he is gone. But in that same moment I know that He is here.

Thank God for the Hope that he brings by never leaving, never forsaking, constantly forgiving. Joshua is gone- but God is here.



7 comments:

Molly Alisa Photography said...

Beautiful Jill.

BlessedMommy said...

I love reading your posts. I always cry, but love how well you put your thoughts into print.

Love you, Jill!

Neysa

Peach said...

Have a Merry Christmas gorgeous.

Hugs and Prayers,
Peach and Drummer

Beth W. said...

Enjoy the time with your family. Merry Christmas sweethart.

Jessica said...

beautiful post. love you!! Merry Christmas!

sidsmom2mickey said...

Beautiful, Jill.

Merry Christmas, my friend.

Christine the ArizonaIntactivist said...

Yes, He is here! AND thank heavens for Him for I wouldn't have any kind of life at all without Him! MERRY "CHRIST"MAS, Jill!!!

 
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