Friday, November 26, 2010

51 days

My first time holding Joshua.


51.
The number of days Joshua was alive.
Now the number of days he has been dead.

Tomorrow, he will be gone longer than he was alive.

It's not fair.


My last time holding Joshua.


22 comments:

EnVii said...

If you ever need someone to talk to about losing a child with HLHS .. you can always email me.. My first child passed away from it. this dec it will be 7 years since she passed .. she only lived for 18 months. My prayers are with you

enviihernandez@gmail.com

Bonnie said...

Praying for you sweet momma. I can't imagine what you are going through. May God give you peace that passes all understanding. Love you!

The Sears Family said...

Thinking of your pretty face. ::mwah::
May the arms of love be wrapped around you as you go through this day.

Beth W. said...

As I sit here crying for you I want to remind you... Joshua was still with you nine months before he was in your arms. Tomorrow he will not have been gone longer than he was here. No, it's not fair. Life rarely is. But we have an eternal hope. Right?
"So we do not lose heart. Though our outer self is wasting away, our inner self is bring renewed day by day. For this light, momentary afflilction is preparing for us an eternal weight of glory beyond all comparison. So we look not to the things that are seen but to the things that are unseen. For the things that are seen are transient, but the things that are unseen are eternal."
2 Corinthians 4: 17- 18

Jennifer said...

Hi Jill, We have never met, but I think of your sweet family and baby Joshua everyday. He is such a sweet little boy with eyes that melt my heart <3
Always praying for you......

Deidre said...

Jill, I'm so sorry honey. I wish like anything I could ease your pain!!! My heart breaks for all our little Angels & all of us left behind dealing with the aftermath. Life sucks. It's not fair. And for that I'm so sorry for all of us. Love and prayers to you my dear friend.

Lauren said...

Sending you lots of hugs from Ohio. ♥

devilneedle said...

My heart is aching for you and your family. I can't even begin to imagine the pain you feel but your posts are a gentle reminder to parents everywhere to hug our children a little bit tighter and be a little more patient when they're naughty. If nothing else, you can be proud that you are encouraging parents to be a little better and take less for granted.

Adrienne said...

This is the first time I have visited your blog since Joshua's death. I am so, so sorry for your loss.

I searched on your blog for a way to contact you, but found none (maybe I am too sleep deprived). I just wanted to lend you my support in the wake of the attacks you have received over the past month. I am probably one of the very few people in the world who have stood in those same shoes, watching my baby boy be circumcised just before he came home, after 10 weeks in the NICU following his Norwood. I am from Noblesville, and there is a good chance you and I even stood in the same hospital, and conversed with the same physicians. After 2.5 years of working with these people, and being a parent of a little boy with HLHS, I KNOW neither you nor they would carelessly put your child in harm's way. Your attackers haven't known your situation. I do, intensely. You parented your child the way you thought was best, and you did a beautiful job.

Tara Collyer Photography said...

I hope that my words aren't getting old...but I really do think of you and pray for you often. I can't imagine your heartache.

Rainy said...

Im so sorry.

Carla Sue said...

*hugs* :(

Stephanie, Daughter of the Risen King said...

Remembering Joshua and honoring God.

Ausmerican Housewife said...

For Baby Joshua

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Brissa said...

it's true, it isn't fair... "hugs" ... ilu

steve, bess & dizzy said...

I'm praying for you!

Molly Alisa Photography said...

Thinking about you guys today, Jill.

kirsten michelle said...

Sending love ...
<3

Truthful Mommy said...

HUGs, I am sending Big Giant strong Hugs@ The kind that wraps you up and lets you cry and rage and holds you secure, so that you can feel your feelings and move through them!Lifting up prayers for your peace.

Christine the ArizonaIntactivist said...

He was and is so beautiful...

A Daft Scots Lass said...

May you find your answers and gain strength...

Kristen L. said...

still praying for you and your family, Jill...

 
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