tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post5067853269651755828..comments2024-01-11T16:41:01.570-05:00Comments on The Real Life of a Red Head: This may be hard to read....Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger79125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-73705342856138911642011-01-01T16:23:44.450-05:002011-01-01T16:23:44.450-05:00I am so terribly sorry for your loss. I cannot eve...I am so terribly sorry for your loss. I cannot even begin to understand your pain. I will keep your beautiful son in my prayers. God Bless you and your family.Lindseynoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-82495966208523260342010-11-10T23:28:40.289-05:002010-11-10T23:28:40.289-05:00I've composed myself enough to type, but I sti...I've composed myself enough to type, but I still don't really know what to say. <br /><br /><br />Please know that sharing this is making me, and I am sure others, be better parents because we are reminded how painfully short life can be. I thank you for that and I also hope that sharing helps you heal a tiny bit.<br /><br />I will pray for you and your family.Anniehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12169966912161467071noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-8327980538867426892010-11-10T01:09:33.321-05:002010-11-10T01:09:33.321-05:00God, I'm a total wreck reading this... I'm...God, I'm a total wreck reading this... I'm stunned by you, and Kirsten and so many others, for your faith, your surviving this. I pray for your family... I do not take one breath, one sound of my son for granted because I know how close we came to a similar ending. It's late at night and I cry and cry and cry reading your writings. Be blessed, I have your family on my heart tonight. I loved the photos of Joshua - what an amazing soul. My heart is with you.Anyahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02856097930439585588noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-16244119083659771732010-10-31T10:55:21.901-04:002010-10-31T10:55:21.901-04:00I started following your struggles about a month a...I started following your struggles about a month ago, and was so deeply affected by this post that I had to write and thank you for sharing your story. You are an inspiration to me, to be able to be so strong in your faith and your love, even thinking about your husband's pain when one would think the human heart had reached its limits. <br />There seemed to be no words to say here that are adequate, but I'm sure for every commenter here, there are hundreds more stunned wordless and praying for you and your family.tanniahhttp://www.raisingstinker.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-19969815036561030212010-10-27T12:44:48.199-04:002010-10-27T12:44:48.199-04:00Thank you for sharing these very personal moments....Thank you for sharing these very personal moments. I am so very sorry for your loss. I also cried and cried as I read your words. I hope and pray you find the comfort only God can give. From a fellow heart momma ...Michellehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05749553610371407608noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-78735783660249801152010-10-26T23:39:38.818-04:002010-10-26T23:39:38.818-04:00I have only just stumbled across your blog and rea...I have only just stumbled across your blog and read this post. I am in awe and amazement of your faith in God. To be able to "praise him in this storm" is such a strong witness that it brings tears to my eyes. Thank you so much for sharing and it has strengthened my faith to remember that He is in control, whether good or bad.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-85585596952218264212010-10-26T22:11:28.799-04:002010-10-26T22:11:28.799-04:00I am so, so sorry you had to go through this. I ca...I am so, so sorry you had to go through this. I can't even imagine.<br /><br />This may not be the best time, but thank you for sharing. I can't tell you how much I thank you for reminding me to hold my baby a little bit closer and a little bit longer.. My heart truly breaks for you.Perfectly Imperfecthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16128584550959614381noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-46369200258117833382010-10-26T02:11:16.818-04:002010-10-26T02:11:16.818-04:00This is what really got me:
She said "Jill, ...This is what really got me:<br /><br />She said "Jill, you need to come in and hold your baby."<br /><br />What a thing to hear... This is very personal, thank you for sharing it with us. Because you do, I am reminded to count my blessings and pray every day. Much love to you.Rachaelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/00318376427752604367noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-52946232818298726322010-10-24T16:16:49.466-04:002010-10-24T16:16:49.466-04:00I am so sorry for your loss... My baby boy also di...I am so sorry for your loss... My baby boy also died on October 6, 2010. I won't say I know what you are feeling because I will never know your pain... But I will say this, I will include your family and your baby boy in my prayers tonight! Maybe our boys will meet and play in heaven! If you need to talk or anything look me up on facebook. My name is Jessica Dupass.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-77263885816442746712010-10-23T10:21:26.054-04:002010-10-23T10:21:26.054-04:00I read this and cried and cried..I can't even ...I read this and cried and cried..I can't even imagine. I will be praying for your heart Jill. <br /><br />I was wondering if I could share this blog on my foundation's page. It is called the HelloGoodbye Foundation. www.facebook.com/hellogoodbyefoundation<br />or <br />www.hellogoodbyefoundation.blogspot.com<br /><br />If there is anything I can do for you to help remember Joshua, I would love too. :)Leah LC Shellumhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04531011670358403911noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-89018637563086148812010-10-23T01:21:50.293-04:002010-10-23T01:21:50.293-04:00there are just no words for me to say to express m...there are just no words for me to say to express my feelings.<br />oh jill :-(<br />i love you. im praying.<br /><3chrissy funknoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-69082847034090474172010-10-22T22:18:48.700-04:002010-10-22T22:18:48.700-04:00Sweet Jill, tears are flowing as I read this. I k...Sweet Jill, tears are flowing as I read this. I know your pain so well I'm afraid. What you write will help you heal. When you don't have the words to speak, the words you write here will aid in healing your heart little by little. I still see it all before I go to bed at night as well, it's in the quiet moments that it all is visualized so clearly every night. My husband had me start reading when I got in bed, to keep my mind on other things, and it really helped. I pray that with each night that passes you are able to reflect on the joyful moments and the hardest ones don't become what you see when you close your eyes. After 7 months I had hoped that I would be free of the burden of the hard nights, but they are still there, just not as frequent as they were before. I am so sorry you have gone through such a time of loss. Know that you are not alone. If you need someone to talk to who has been there, I am here. I am praying for you and your family.Mellowhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05103970599447700302noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-52676692936569658622010-10-22T21:15:54.401-04:002010-10-22T21:15:54.401-04:00Oh Jill,
How I want for you to have never felt the...Oh Jill,<br />How I want for you to have never felt the emotions you have felt. I too replayed the minutes, seconds every detail of the last hours with our son. I can still do it to this day. I wish that you understood that while "venting" this, as it were, you are helping so many people. Not only those who have lost a child, but those who have loss in their lives period. Talking about sorrow and grief allows us to heal just a breath, and helps anyone reading to understand that death is not the end of life; just life as we understand it. And while that may not ease your sorrow right this moment, your words have touched someone else, this someone in fact and I am sure others who need to hear that promise of eternal life revisited.<br /><br />Your sorrow breeds strength and in doing so, it honors your entire journey with Joshua. It honors the love of a mother and a child. It honors you. And you my new friend, deserve it!<br /><br />Douglas' MomAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-2986067732327336402010-10-22T15:51:27.886-04:002010-10-22T15:51:27.886-04:00Prayers to you. We lost Luke in the ER and it was...Prayers to you. We lost Luke in the ER and it was horrible. I saw a lot of what you saw and it was tough...it still is tough. I think all of us who share this loss have a certain amount of PTSD and counseling does really help. I pray that you find some peace in knowing that you did everything that you could do for Joshua. He is safe and whole. God bless!<br /><br />BernieAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-34949881606266372642010-10-22T14:07:35.188-04:002010-10-22T14:07:35.188-04:00Oh, Jill. Oh my. I can't imagine how it must...Oh, Jill. Oh my. I can't imagine how it must have felt to have experienced that, to have lost your sweet Joshua, how it must hurt to relive it while writing this post. Crying and sending you hugs and prayers for peace.Barnmavenhttp://www.barnmaven.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-13578358743774236372010-10-22T13:40:07.192-04:002010-10-22T13:40:07.192-04:00Oh Jill, I'm speechless. I cannot imagine your...Oh Jill, I'm speechless. I cannot imagine your grief...nor your emotions at that time & place. But thank you for sharing this intimate memory of your sweet son.<br />Praying for you & yours,<br />MaryAuntie Mhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/06610977491641901739noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-20604904987074642442010-10-22T13:13:33.762-04:002010-10-22T13:13:33.762-04:00I can only imagine how difficult this was for you ...I can only imagine how difficult this was for you to share. You are truly a strong woman Jill and I admire you greatly.<br /><br />I send you my love and prayers!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-14004718822649590652010-10-22T12:57:46.559-04:002010-10-22T12:57:46.559-04:00I found your blog from a midwife named Barbra (nav...I found your blog from a midwife named Barbra (navelgazing). My heart is so broken for you and my desk is rained with tears for your bravery in writing this raw human experience for people like me.<br />Thank you. I am so sorry for your pain.Aubreyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14984112705007749126noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-67283879022161482142010-10-22T07:59:03.821-04:002010-10-22T07:59:03.821-04:00thank you for sharing your story. I am sitting her...thank you for sharing your story. I am sitting here sobbing right now. I can't imagine what you are going through.Ambernoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-67503859264554864672010-10-22T03:16:42.712-04:002010-10-22T03:16:42.712-04:00I can hardly see right now, tears of love, tears o...I can hardly see right now, tears of love, tears of sadness, I continue to pray for you guys. While your words are painful, there is so much love in them. You WILL see him again.MPdaCNAhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07740992559984877793noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-7989256570234777842010-10-22T01:47:20.764-04:002010-10-22T01:47:20.764-04:00This brings back the memory of holding my sweet ba...This brings back the memory of holding my sweet baby Evan and having the nurses disconnect his breathing tube and head iv and ensuring us that his morphine was going in through his belly button iv and watching him die.<br /><br />Watching my baby as he struggled to breathe on his own, watching his chest heave and hearing him make squeaky squawky raspberry like sounds as he tried to hold on. Over and over and over I told him "when you see Jesus, you run. Don't hold back, just run. When you see your sister, just run...."<br /><br />We were surrounded by our parents, my husband's grandmother, his brother and his brother's wife (pregnant with our little niece). 2 nurses were with us. One of them was in charge as it was her first time doing a baby "disconnect" (as I called it). She'd assisted before but never done one as the head nurse. Her backup nurse was fantastic. As Evan was making his funny little noises, the more senior nurse told us "He must have a lot to say to you." I thought that was so sweet. Evan took 90 minutes to pass from my arms to Jesus and at times our nurses had to step outside to compose themselves. This was as difficult for them as it was for us.<br /><br />Oh how I wish this wasn't so dear blm sister. Its a sisterhood I wish never existed. I like to think that Evan and Joshua are being little holy terrors running the angels off their feet with their little boy antics.Ausmerican Housewife - Creating with Kara Davieshttps://www.blogger.com/profile/16075297679140718497noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-37531586661594412872010-10-22T00:20:10.757-04:002010-10-22T00:20:10.757-04:00Tears and prayers. May God hold you and your whole...Tears and prayers. May God hold you and your whole family close.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-9805943816768355662010-10-21T22:57:16.812-04:002010-10-21T22:57:16.812-04:00Jill, when the images and memories flood and overw...Jill, when the images and memories flood and overwhelm you, do what the nurse told you to do: hold your baby. Wrap Caleb and Hannah up in your loving arms, even if it means crawling into their beds at night. So many nights, your blogs and Joshuas story would overwhelm me and I would go get my son, Gus, out of his crib and snuggle him close. There is no greater peace or comfort than the bond between a mother and her baby (babies). Thank you for sharing this story... It was so hard to read, but it's also so powerful. Praying for you every day....<br />Lindsay (Baranowski) PartridgeLindsay Partridgehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08400971166390181495noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-21295380488094447812010-10-21T22:08:15.144-04:002010-10-21T22:08:15.144-04:00how heartbreaking, so sorry for your loss and than...how heartbreaking, so sorry for your loss and thanks for sharing.<br />xxMummahhhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07045618190384894494noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557719621411312017.post-4639056430292028042010-10-21T22:07:32.817-04:002010-10-21T22:07:32.817-04:00Jill, your words are amazing. You will see Joshua ...Jill, your words are amazing. You will see Joshua again and God will let you know why. I pray for you and Shane and love you guys very much!!Katie Delgadonoreply@blogger.com